The never ending battle of being Human, for me, is this fight within of choosing Love over Anger. I can only speak from my own experiences since I’m no expert, only another Human on this planet trying to be the best me I can be. This constant battle is a 24/7 fight that is won moment to moment. It’s the main reason why I sing HU. Anything to help me choose Love over choosing Fear.
Let me be real. I seemed to have finally surfaced from a world war XIII going on within myself for the last few months. It all started with allowing myself to indulge in road rage. Seemed harmless enough. Sitting in my car, where no one can hear me, and yelling at other cars that refuse to do my bidding. Yes, it’s indulgent and very self centered but I could see, very clearly, that everyone else in their cars were doing the same thing. So why not me.
After years of peaceful driving, where I actually thought I had overcome my ‘anger’ issues, all it took was one impatient day of “Don’t you know that I need to be at work on time!!” to end the calm that took me YEARS to develop. I was yelling and screaming and facepalming til the cows came home and the scary part was once I started I couldn’t stop.
One day turned into a week, which turned into a couple months, which turned into impatience all the time, which turned into anger thrown everywhere I went including my work, relationships, and even my spiritual path.
Dang. A Spiral of doom into the pits of hell all within my own mind.
In spite of the fact I know that I know better. The crazy thing is that I let anger in an inch and it took a mile. Worst still, my ego put it’s foot in the door and said “Oh ho! If you’re letting her in then I’m comin’ in too!!!!” and that’s when I hit rock bottom.
I would go about a perfectly lovely day shitting all over it. AND the worst part is I was aware of what I was doing the WHOLE time and still was unable to change my attitude about it. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!
My man was so amazing and patient during this ugly process, while also calling me out on this nonsense which helped me force myself to check myself. Thank God for him. Thank God for all my patient friends (Cindy Robinson, Steph Sheh) who listened while I whined about feeling all this anger and ego bullshit then quickly and curtly reminded me that this behaviour was NOT me and the sooner I just let it be (while cleaning up all the messes I was making as I go) the sooner I would be back to my natural positive energetic self.
Oh god I missed that me so much.
I was a grumpy, miserable, self centered blob of annoyingness. I hid out at home as much as possible. I put my best face on to go to work but I know the nastiness was oozing out of me. I sang the HU constantly (or as Cindy puts it I spHUed it constantly), but the love I normally feel when I sing it seemed elusive. HUing through gritted teeth. However, experience has taught me to keep singing it through all the muck because it helps me to get through the muck as gracefully as humanly possible.
I made a lot of messes. I yelled at people that I love, I spewed righteous indignation all over the internet, my vanity cried out for validation and acknowledgement and I hurt people I don’t even know. So if you were one of these people I am very sorry. I’m still cleaning up the messes I made.
I am not sorry I experienced all of this though, because boy did I learn a lot about myself so it really has been a gift. Hopefully now that it seems to have lifted, I will be more cautious of opening that pandora’s box as well as have greater compassion for anyone trapped in that spiral of doom.
I know it’s all about being Human. I know everyone has these experiences to one degree or another. I realize this isn’t anything particularly special. The reason I’m writing it is because it helps me be accountable for my actions and it’s my truth in this moment. What’s the point of writing a blog if I can’t keep it real. I am grateful to say I feel much better. I genuinely feel my energy, positivity and excitement for life back. YAYY!!!
BUT……. I have still caught myself several times this week faced with that simple little choice while sitting in traffic. Erin, are you gonna let yourself become impatient or are you gonna check yourself, sing the HU and listen to some relaxing music while surrendering to the fact I just may not get there at the time I had hoped.
So far I’ve chosen door number 2. Hopefully this experience will stick with me a long time to remind me WHY I choose that door. If you took the time to read this, thank you. I hope you got something out of it. If not, just move along nothing to see here.
May the Blessings Be.
This summer has been freaking amazing! I can’t even put into words ALL of the adventures I’ve had and amazing people I have met! If you were one of them. Thank you so much!!! I so appreciate meeting fans of the work I am a part of. You guys make my job more than being someone locked in a room playing make believe. You finish the painting by watching, playing, and involving yourselves in the work. What a gift!!
First off let me publicly thank Debi Derryberry for introducing me to the OZ Comic Con folks Carissa and Rand! What amazing loveballs who throw one heck of a shindig for a Con! So impressive and not to mention loving and considerate! Thank you guys! I really appreciate you.
So the most amazing thing that happened on the trip happened within the first hour of arrival while I was en route via car to the hotel from the airport. I’m in the car having a lovely chat with the driver (whose name i have now forgotten due to waiting over a month to write this but who was just so amazing! He really said some deep insights that set the tone for my trip. Thank You!) and out my window on a posters along a wall into town I see my old University friend Charles Ross!!!!! He was one of my closest friends my last year of University and we even toured a show across the Northern States and Canada for the Fringe festival once.
Charles is one of those Souls who the universe delivers into my life out of nowhere just to catch up! Just because I love him so! What a GIFT! I went and saw his show (which if you haven’t you must! it’s FREAKING GENIUS!!!) and we hung out and caught up. The last time I saw him was in LA when he was on the Tonight Show for his ONE MAN STAR WARS which I got to see in Arizona and was also FREAKIN’ GENIUS!!! Needless to say I am one of his biggest fans. He tours the planets with his shows constantly so keep an eye out for a city near you.
For the first few days I was dealing with the jetlag so mostly I walked around downtown Melbourne which actually felt a whole lot like I was in Vancouver. Wild. I got to hang out with my girl Debi Derryberry and her man Ty, which was so great. I rarely get to do that. They were my quality time on the trip. It was like travelling with family and make a wonderful couple.
I did go to an ‘intro night’ event where I got to see the other guests at the con. Due to my not having cable there were many I did not recognize but it’s ok, they didn’t know who I was either. I did find out a lot of them were Canadian so mostly we bonded about that. Fun folks I saw and spoke to briefly were Cary Elwes, William Shatner, Tia Carrere and the person I fangirled over internally so much I could not speak to him only make eye contact and giggle like a fool when we were next to each other: Ron Perlman. So silly, you never know who you will fangirl over until you meet them in person. I even had to take this picture in the Green Room of the con, pretending I was photographing Bill Farmer, just cuz I didn’t have the balls to ask him for a photo directly. As you can see he totally knew what I was doing. I got away with nothing! Even his stare from that distance stopped my heart and made me sweat.
Next, getting to meet Rob Paulsen, Bill Farmer and his wife Jennifer, & Rodger Bumpass and his sweetheart Barbara was soooooo much fun! More Loveballs!!! With a special shoutout to our handler Brent Kerr. Just the nicest group of folks you’d ever want to meet. They are the kind of folks you want in your life just because they are grounded, down to earth and just so kind hearted. The fact that they voice such famous characters is really a side effect of their awesomeness already ingrained in their DNA. I feel so lucky to have spent any time with them. What a gift!
The highlight of the Con for me was sitting in between Bill Farmer and Rob Paulsen for my first panel (hopefully I will get pics of this at some point) with the amazing Debi Derryberry and the comic genius of Rodger Bumpass. So on one side Bill Farmer does his Foghorn Leghorn voice and out of nowhere from deep within me I could feel the 4 yr old me surface and begin to rejoice with handclapping and laughter! It came right out of me totally unexpected and wouldn’t stop. It felt like something I had totally forgotten about. A joy that I had buried. Thank you Bill for that. Then at the end of the Panel (which I barely remember due to the overwhelmed sense of awe I was experiencing) Rob Paulsen performed live, RIGHT NEXT TO ME, The “Countries of the World” song. YES HE DID! LIVE!!!! I couldn’t stop laughing, more so out of disbelief this was happening. And it even brought tears to my eyes cause what a great finale to the first panel of the first day of the convention.
There were TONS of Monster High fans there! I was so excited to see all the cosplayers! So many Spectras! What a GIFT!
and My GAMERS!!! You Represented! I signed a ton of Chie swag!! I was so impressed at some of the other game stuff people brought to me that I had no idea had been popular in Australia. I sat between Debi Derryberry and Rodger Bumpass during all the signings. So I got to listen to Squidward and Jimmy Neutron talk to fans in those voices all day. WHAT A GIFT!
I seriously had such an amazing time in Melbourne Australia! The fans were so amazing and fun! I love that I got my own picture with Chie!! (which I need to scan and post still) You guys made me feel so loved and appreciated.
Funny sidenote: There were a ton of cast members there representing Once Upon a Time (with whom I got to meet and chat with all of them lovely) and it made me feel like I was secretly a part of them because of Ever After High. I didn’t say anything to them, but it felt cool that I did feel a connection because of it. We will see how that unfolds.
*for more pics from this con check the bottom of this blog I will add images there as I receive them.
San Diego Comic Con
This year was no different from any other year at SDCC except it felt like I had less time to spend with friends than in the past. I did see many of my Voice Artist compatriots but considering the amount who were there, really not as many as I might have thought. It was fun to see Janet Varney who I originally met at Anime Matsuri, and give her love. I also got to say Hi to Rob Paulsen who I met obviously at Oz Con barely a week before. Such funny coincidences, that really aren’t coincidences.
This con, like last year, was dominated by Monster High for me. I really love hanging out with the whole MH team at Comic Con. They are so friendly and loving. Really passionate about what they do and the fans. I love seeing that genuine exchange of gratitude between Creators and Fans. It is seriously a beautiful thing.
I was blessed again this year with the Monster High exclusive doll being one of the characters I voice. I think those odds are crazy and yet 2 years running a character I voice has been the exclusive. What a Gift! The only reason I have a Webarella doll is because the Executive Producer Audu Paden gave me his. She was tough to acquire this year. I did get manage to get a Scarah last year if you read my blog about that experience. I couldn’t even do that this year.
I LOVED being on the MH panel again this year with one of my BFFs America Young and my new friend Jonquil Goode. Evan Smith and Stephanie Sheh were also there but cuz they didn’t have enough room behind the tables they sat in the front row. We need more seats on the panel!!! America and Jonquil star in the new MH special coming out 13 Wishes! So be sure to pick up that DVD when it releases in the fall. They are amazing!!!
I did get to spend some quality time with an old friend (who isn’t that old) Julia Arem and a newer friend that I have been getting to know better Stephanie Sheh. I know you are thinking, didn’t I already know her? well yes. But I don’t consider knowing someone from work really knowing them. It’s the time you spend outside of work talking and sharing that really helps you to understand who a person is. I must say what I have learned about Stephanie has made me feel like I should have done this ages ago! She is AMAZING!! A real life dolly! Someone I look forward to spending more time with.
Julia and I got to spend the day together walking the exhibition floor, going to lunch and finding new and amazing artists…. it’s kind of becoming our tradition. One of my favorite traditions! We had great fun at the Hyperactive Monkey booth where, if you follow me on social media, you know I spent most of my $$ buying all of their awesome swag!!!
Looking back from a month later the whole experience felt like a blur. I saw so many humans. Gave and received so many hugs. Signed so many items. OH! HUGE SHOUTOUT to the amazing fan that stood through the epicly long Monster High line, got everyone’s autograph out of courtesy then when you got to me PULLED OUT ALL THE CHIE SWAG!!!!! What Whaaaaaat!!!! You are AMAZING! and You seriously made my day and made me feel so special! Thank you! There were so many amazing family members of Monster High fans that also waited through that line to collect all of our autographs for someone you love. So much love to you too! What a GIFT!
OH CRAP!! I almost forgot the MOST AMAZING THING THAT HAPPENED!!! Have I mentioned how much I love the Universe? I truly believe the Universe is constantly plotting for our ultimate good. And that Ultimate good is always about greater Love for us to give and receive. So guess what it did? Well, you remember how earlier in this blog how I ‘bumped’ into my old friend from university in Melbourne, Australia right? So the Universe decides it’s gonna top itself.
I’m at a party on Friday night for PCB and their amazing new Motion Graphic Comic Infex (which is seriously badass by the way, please check it out!!!) And I’m enjoying meeting with some old work friends. I’m having a giggly good time with Steve Jaros, who just cracks me up to the enth degree and I just adore! and he goes off to get us drinks (mine always a virgin). So I’m sitting at this table behind cheese cloth that has been hung dramatically in front of all the booths and I’m people watching and enjoying myself, as I do. I watch a guy walk in with 2 women, and think nothing of it. He starts looking hard through the cheese cloth at me. In the kind of way that makes me mutter to myself “who the hell is this guy? do i know him? I don’t remember him!” He comes up to my booth sits right in and faces me quite closely asking “are you Erin Fitzgerald?” which for a split second seriously weirded me out, and I say cautiously “yeeessss??” and he says “IT’S ME MICHAEL ADAMTHWAITE!!!!!”
Now let me back up here, cause I know you have no idea at this point what a dude named Michael Adamthwaite has to do with me. So lemme give you the backstory. As a child being the daughter of a Naval Officer, we moved around A LOT! My parents had 2 sets of best friends. They kind of ended up over my life time being the only people we saw ‘regularly’ since they moved as often as we did and we would end up in the same city a bunch. One of these couples were the Adamthwaites. The Adamthwaites had 3 kids and Michael was the youngest. Little Mikey.
So When a huge Grown Man Head was in my face saying “IT’S ME MICHAEL ADAMTHWAITE” I literally grabbed that ginormous noggin and SCREAMED ” AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!” followed by “You have a huge grown up head!!!!!” not to mention he was in a big ‘ol grown up body too!!! It was a super wild experience! Turns out, he had been working with PCB in Canada on some projects and they had invited him down not knowing anything about our family history! It was AMAZING! Thank you PCB for being the conduits of miracles! What an UNBELIEVABLE GIFT!!!
So that ends this blog really even though there were a myriad of amazing experiences I didn’t get into. Meeting R2D2, Tim and his amazing daughters, Connecting with another old friend and hundreds more but I won’t take up more of your time. xoxo.
Thanks for reading about my adventures. I hope you are a part of them some day if you aren’t already. As always I deeply appreciate all the Love and Support fans of Animation, Games and Anime bring to the party.
Baraka Bashad May the Blessings Be.
Here are a few more pics from both Oz Con and San Diego Comic Con. Enjoy!! I’m sorry I don’t have more, but friends tell me they will send me some soon. I’m not an avid photographer since I prefer enjoying the moment without the camera. But I didn’t do too bad! More to come….
You may have seen my blogs on Tumblr about the ridiculousness of Large Breasts making a game “Sexist”. Here they are again for the official release of Dragon’s Crown, where I play the busty red headed Sorceress. Funny how the same issue came up in regards to the busty red headed Parasoul I played in Skullgirls.
Both women are 2 of the strongest female characters I have ever voiced. So give my blogs another read if you like. But don’t bother me with your nonsense about sexism until you understand it’s true definition.
Blog I posted when the uproar began about the Sorceresses Design
IMO. Pendulous breasts NEVER make a game sexist, a female character who is victimized, oppressed by men, or taken advantage of, or abused is sexist. If a woman is strong and powerful and has pendulous breasts well that’s just awesome AND most women in my family… You sayin the females in my family sexist just cuz we jiggle? Get over it!
Blog I posted on Tumblr about the flak Skullgirls got for being ‘Sexist’
I am the Voice actress who plays Parasoul in the game Skullgirls. I consider myself very pro active in my participation in women’s rights. I own the game and I play it regularly. I don’t feel for one second that this game is sexist. Sexism is not defined by skimpy outfits. Sexism is defined by the dictionary as prejudice, stereotyping, or discrimination, typically against women, on the basis of sex.
This game is not doing any of these things. unless you believe Skullgirls is creating the stereotype that ass kicking women have tremendously pendulous breasts. In that case, every anime series can be accused of the same thing.
Not once do these characters have to use their sexuality to get ahead. They don’t have to say demeaning things lowering their self worth. They don’t even make sexual references in the dialogue. They are not in need of men to handle their business. This is a kick ass fighting game using ALL FEMALE CHARACTERS people!
This means Payed work for female voice actors!!! Which made this VA feel empowered after the session! I got to play a powerful and strong woman in CHARGE! That is what matters to me.
What is sexist is all the first person shooter games that are made with hundreds of male characters and a pittance of female characters. Where the female characters are always the same personality and barely get a story line unless its in regards to enhance some male characters story line. When my male counterpart works 5 weeks on a game while I get 2 days. That’s sexism…. and I am still grateful for my 2 days work. That ain’t gonna change people.
Just my opinion
Here’s another perspective on breasts spoken Beautifully by Hollie McNish:
I spent the last weekend in March at Deneice and John Leigh’s little convention *cough cough* Anime Matsuri! WOW! What a spectacular event! They may have ruined me for all other cons with their amazing preparation, team of volunteers and masterful execution of an action packed con! Know that I joke when I say little because it was HUUUUGE!
Deneice and John are so amazing they (well Deneice did, she’s in the middle) picked me up in this (pay no attention to the giant sweat stain under my arm):
So without knowing it, I was on the same flight as one of the funniest women alive. A Miss Janet Varney whom you might know from a little cartoon knows as The Legend of Korra caauuuuuse she IS Korra!
We met in the airport in Houston and hit it right off! She and I had a leeeeettle fun in the Limo:
I immediately fell in love with her sassy sweet and honest disposition! I had a blast hanging with this ray of sunshine on Friday and Saturday! If you got to her panel you know what I’m talking about. She is HILARIOUS! wait there’s a link…. Here watch her and enjoy, dunno if it translates as well on video, but live it was fantastic: Janet Varney Video
Yah, I hope to see her again if the fates allow. But even if I don’t I feel so lucky to have gotten to spend the time I did. I hope you all watch Korra and all the other comedy live action stuff she’s in! She’s fantastic! We roamed the con, bought stuff, ate and laughed a lot! I even got to go to her panel since mine was in the same room right afterwards!
There were so many people at this convention that I have heard of but never met in person. Like Johnny Yong Bosch! I was so disappointed we didn’t do a P4 panel together! But let’s be real this King of Cons was a tad scheduled within an inch of his life! Not only was he there as a Power Ranger and VA but his band Eyeshine was performing all over the place! They are terrific by the way!
Needless to say I DID get to at least meet him in person and have a few short and quick conversations. I can honestly say I genuinely like him. He had a great clear energy and I loved how he was with the fans. A real stand up guy. He was funny and silly and sweet. I know millions of girls are jealous that i got this picture with him too! But the BEST PART was on Saturday morning when I walked into the green room Johnny was holding his guitar and started singing “Good Morning Erin!” and did a whole song about wishing me a good day! His band even joined in! Totally started my day with abundant amounts of love! I heart him so much for that!
You can see more of Johnny and all his appearances here: Johnny’s panels …. One day we will get to be on a panel together (hopefully with many P4 actors) that would be amazing! Somebody get on that!
On my panel which was also videotaped and put on the same page but at the bottom here: Erin & Kyle together I decided to invite my friend Kyle Hebert to join me. Why? Because what’s the point of being at a con and having all this time you can spend with co workers that you never get to see but not see them because Cons are too polite to book us on panels together. FORGET THAT! I don’t need my own panel! I prefer being with my co workers and sharing our stories and answers together! That is creating memories that last forever to me.
So that’s what I did and I loved it! Kyle is such a gentleman and is so laid back. I adore him. Highlights of the Convention with Kyle included the improv show friday night but more importantly the hour we laid on the floor when his previous Dragonball Z evolution panel got cancelled due to tech difficulties. We just laid on the stage trying to rest up thinking we would never be able to do improv past midnight! certainly not be funny.
Low and behold through the magic that was Mike Macfarland, Matt Mercer, Carli Mosier, Becky Young and Marisha Ray we managed to feed off their amazing energy and pull off one of the funniest improv shows I’ve ever done last minute with a cast I had never met. It was fantastic! And I finally got to meet Mike, Carli and Becky! I had met Matt and Marisha playing paintball in LA so those were the folks I knew! If you were there that night thank you so much!
It was such a terrific crowd! I know that’s why things ended up being so funny! I wish I could share more about what happened but it was a late night show and meant to stay at the Con. Let me just say I got to know Carli Mosier very intimately VERY QUICKLY! LOLOL!
Since Janet had to leave Saturday Mike McFarland picked up cracking me up where Janet left off! If you have never met him in person you must! He is a Comic Genius! I truly mean that. His timing and abilities are mind blowing! A real comedy star. I was dying from laughter every time I was around him. Thank you so much Mike! What a gift.
OH YAH! I forgot to mention all the Chie’s!!! There were 4 Chie’s that I saw! YAY! Apparently a Parasoul also roamed the event but she didn’t have the time to come and meet me. Bummer! but here are my Chie pictures!
Note the hilarity of Pedo Bear behind the picture on the right! Janet took the pic on the left and Kyle took the pic on the right! I am so honored that they chose Chie for their cosplay! YOU GOTTA EAT MORE MEAT!
Holy Smokes! I ALMOST FORGOT THE BEST PART!!! I MET AN EGRET! A REAL EGRET!!!
Saturday was fun with my panel, sadly it was just me this time, and meeting fans at the signing and photo op portion of the day. I really got to meet many of you and spend some time talking. That is one of my favorite parts.
Saturday night got awesome with the Anime Radio and I met Stephanie Young Brehm too! Kyle Hebert is a panel idea genius and borrowed this idea from some other successful cast read thru panels but OURS were to 1940 original Batman comics!!! AND THEY WERE HILARIOUS!!! Many of you know I perform in LA with a comedy troupe that performs classic 1940′s radio plays so this was right up my alley and it did not disappoint! So much fun!
Saturday night got even MORE awesome when I went to watch Johnny Yong Bosch’s band Eyeshine perform AND Stephanie Young Brehm ALSO performed with her husband animator David Brehm! They were Amazing!!!! I have a pic of Johnny, see if you can make him out, my phone didn’t zoom.
I sat with Mike McFarland and other Anime Matsuri special guest Kelly Hu. Then we all hung out backstage for a while and talked and joked and tried to decide what we should do next. We ended up going to the Hotel bar for drinks. (if you know me, you know i only had water). But here is a pretty good shot of us all backstage. A little fuzzy but we made the poor dude take a picture with each of our phones so only one shot at a time made it. In case you don’t know who is who. From left to right it is Johnny, Stephanie, her husband David, me, Mike McFarland and Kelly Hu.
We sat around chatting at the bar for a while but both Johnny and Mike had to leave for other engagements which left me, Steph and David and Kelly. Poor David had to sit and listen as us girls started to gab it up talking about our Dogs and Life. We had a great time. Kelly thought it was neat I had her name tattooed on my arm, as did I, so she had a pic taken with her phone for posterity and it is now, hands down, the best picture ever taken of me ever. So know if you meet me in real life i don’t really look like that. Only through the Filter of HU do I shine that brightly!
If you want to know what the HU means to me just go to this page here: HU Song
Sunday I didn’t have any panels and my flight flew out late so I had time to walk the dealers floor and bought tons of swag from the Sanshee booth. The ONLY booth selling stuff I worked on. sidenote: if you are a dealer going to a con, wouldn’t it make sense to stock up on items that the ‘guests’ are in. People buy it all to get signed and the artists themselves will drop plenty of dough to by stuff with their characters on them. But alas, it seems no one has figured out this logic and luckily for me Sanshee was there to take all of my money.
I even bought stuff for the other skullgirls. Pins for everyone and a t-shirt for Cerebellum and Peacock, since they were the only ones with shirts… so far. The Sanshee people assured me more are coming. I also bought a Catherine shirt for me and 2 persona 4 shirts. YAY! oh and a Parasoul poster.
The rest of the time I spent talking to the amazing team of people who staffed the event. They were UHmazing. The fella who was assigned to ‘handle’ me was David Phan and he did a terrific job of keeping me informed of all my duties, getting me to places on time, keeping me on track and watered and fed. Thank you David and all the people who worked with David. Shams, Kendra, Albert, Jennie and Patrick were the ones who worked with me the most. I had an amazing time. OH and I almost forgot to mention I kept bumping into The Lady Spade in the Greenroom! Her and her adorable ladies always looked amazing and were just the sweetest girls ever!
Here’s David (such a sweetie having to put up with me!) with me right before I flew out. You can see half of Kendra’s face on the left! Thank you Anime Matsuri for being so professional and loving and so much fun! I hope to make it back one of these years! Until then if you want me to attend a con near you, email that con and give them this website as a way of contacting me. I would love to meet more of you and get more of your stories! I feel this might be the best part of my job.
I spent the entire day sleeping and in contemplation. This week has been one of the most amazing weeks of my life. I got the opportunity to be apart of something so much bigger than myself that I feel Life just got a whole lot more interesting.
Starting with the Live Stream a week ago at Salty Cupcakes where I showed up to support the little independent video game I’m in called Skullgirls, get into EVO by raising the most money in a donation competition. Winner got 8th spot in EVO.
From the first day I auditioned for Skullgirls I had a soft spot in my heart for it. The design had me in love upon first sight and I didn’t care that they wouldn’t be able to pay me my regular rate for VO. I knew I wanted to help bring to life this dream that someone (Alex, Mike and their team of Angels) had created.
So when I got hired by Mike Z and Alex Ahad under the VO direction of Cristina Vee I was happy to do all I could to help promote the game. For the last year, it’s been brilliant to watch how so many others also feel how I do about the game and in one short year we built a real community of people passionate about the game.
I have done what I can in the limited ways a voice actor has to promote the game. But the fund raiser had real potential to get the word out about Skullgirls, as well as raise money for an important cause… Breast Cancer Research.
I am at the age where friends of mine have been diagnosed and have fought through many types of cancer including Breast. I am one of the blessed humans because all of these loved ones have survived their fight. The loved ones of others haven’t been so lucky. It was an easy switch inside me to turn on…. something clicked…. I had to put all my heart and soul into supporting those in this event.
Because ultimately it’s all about LOVE. Love for my job, love for the people who create animation, love for people who create video games, love for people who play video games and watch animation. Love for friends and family. and even Love for the Human Race.
I haven’t felt this kind of communal love before. Certainly not to this degree. It was a real struggle for us to get in the competition and stay in it. Every time we asked for a donation, in my minds eye I saw thousands of College students donating their grocery money for the week. So many people sacrificed for this little indie game.
I have no words to describe how honorable that is. How incredibly LOVING. How AMAZING YOU ALL ARE! all of those words fail at what I’m feeling inwardly.
What felt even more impossible was how old the competition was and how huge their fan base expanded. It really did feel like David vs Goliath just because our Skullgirls community didn’t have the resources of the competition. We had to get creative!
Mr. Fanatiq and Danny who did a 15 hr stream of which I joined 10 hrs of, amazing. Kyle Hebert for donating his own time, even though he isn’t in the game itself and raising thousands of dollars that night by doing endless VO requests, AMAZING! …..
Kaiji Tang getting a Skullgirls tattoo because he promised if we hit $25k he would…. Alex Ahad DESIGNING Kaiji’s tattoo, AMAZING.
Last night ALL OF YOU DONATING $50K IN ONE NIGHT………….O_________O MIND BLOWINGLY AMAZING!!!!!!!
From the instant fanart, to the letters of appreciation, to the personal stories told to me of Breast Cancer affecting your lives…. I have so much love for you I feel like you are all part of my family now. We went through something together. Hours and HOURS of an amazing LIFE EXPERIENCE where I truly believe we changed the world this week. We added so much more LOVE to it, that I know somebody’s life will be saved.
Because ultimately WE RAISED OVER $78, 780 FOR BREAST CANCER RESEARCH and as a community of fighting game fans WE RAISED $233,000 that is MIND BLOWING!!!!!!! I want to again share the beautiful closing thoughts Mike Z had at the end of last night.
*Fantastic news, everybody!
While we didn’t win the Evo fundraiser, your truly phenomenal support of Skullgirls still managed to get Evo’s attention.
The Skullgirls side-tournament will now have official support from Evo: dedicated stations in the Bring-Your-Own-Console area, a Top 8 stream, and they’ll be adding $1000 to the prize pool!*
Below is my image journal of the weeklong experience of getting the little game that could to EVO… I don’t take enough pictures, I know so many people are missing from my photos like Alex and Mike Z… but I prefer to live my life first hand and I used my time to get to know them both a little more. But I did capture a few moments and received some brilliant artwork that needs to be permanently documented all together in this blog. A Big Thank you to all the artists Rtil, Kinuko, Persona, Roger Dog , Ian Chase aka Delicious Orange Art, RedMuttFightingGame and the ones’ whose names I couldn’t find. (feel free to let me know who i missed)
THIS IS AN ADDITION WRITTEN ON APRIL 3 2013. MONTHS LATER AFTER ALL OF YOU BANDED TOGETHER FOR THE INDIEGOGO CAMPAIGN AND RAISED A WHOPPING $829,829.00 FOR 5 ADDITIONAL DLC CHARACTERS, STORYMODES AND MORE!!! AGAIN, YOU HAVE PROVEN YOU ARE AMAZING AND HONORABLE AND THE BEST COMMUNITY I HAVE EVER HAD THE HONOR OF BEING A PART OF!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH AND AM GRATEFUL THAT I GET TO PLAY THE ROLE OF THE PRINCESS FOR CANOPY KINGDOM.
I decided to wait until the new year for my next post for a couple of reasons. One, big changes were happening in my personal life. Two, a big event occurred in my professional life but felt too good to be true that I needed to sit with it for a while……And still do, really.
I am not going to go into these 2 things in detail because I still feel they are such new growth that they need gentle tending to as they grow and become stronger. What I can do is go into what these events mean to me. They have made me look for more within myself than I had previous thought possible.
I realize that most human’s limit themselves somewhere or other and I am most definitely one of them. The Universe has given me the opportunity to push past these illusory limitations to find a store of strength, ability and creativity I had not thought possible for myself. I’m not saying that I’m quite there yet, but I am no longer in the comfort zone of my previous limitations.
Currently I am in the uncomfortable zone of self-doubt while in motion. Biting off big new areas of Life that I once thought were never for me. I am moving forward with faith (I have received numerous waking dreams letting me know I am exactly where I’m supposed to be), adventure, and courage. For anyone who has ever worked with Rune Stones, if I were to pull a Rune on my current situation I am quite certain it would be the UNKNOWN. Because I am starting down I path that is unfamiliar with me, not knowing where it will lead.
I’m still doing voice over work of course! But in order to achieve the goals I have set for myself I have to shed my old limitations and walk boldly forward into areas as a performer that I have never done before. I have to put myself out there in my work in a manner no one has previously given me the opportunity for.
2013 is filled with new opportunities for me that I don’t want to blow. I want to do my very best, both personally and professionally. I find I have a huge fear of F%$*#ing it up. But I suppose most of us do. I’m afraid I’m not qualified to step into these bigger shoes that I have laid out for myself…. which most of us fear, as my dear friends remind me.
But I am moving forward in spite of my fears because I am incredibly blessed to have walked the path I have, with the challenges I have had the opportunity to face and creatively work through. I am ready to push myself beyond my limitations and rededicate myself to the things I love most in life. That includes you. I love my connections with other people. I find them sacred and important.
There are people who have appeared in my world for only moments that have deeply affected me by the love they gave. This is what life is all about for me. To give and receive Love. I rededicate myself to that. I choose to fill these new adventures in 2013 with the most LOVE I have to give.
I trust that this ship on the ocean of love and mercy will lead me to amazing new places I never could have dreamed of for myself. I promise to do my very best at all times and work on shifting negative and limiting beliefs and attitudes to more loving and adventurous ones.
I will continue to sing the HU daily to open my heart to be able to give and receive more of this Divine Love and creativity that flows through all of you and all around. I am scared, excited, tentative, anticipatory and grateful.
If you are up for this adventure I look forward to doing it along side of you. I look forward to look at you on the bow of your ship from the bow of mine encouraging each other forward through this amazing and vast ocean of Life. There may be storms but we can handle them! Let us strike forth with Love, Courage, and Honor.
Let 2013 be the year we become who we know ourselves to be.
May the Blessings Be
What a wild year 2012 has been and its not quite finished yet. Work has been much slower than last year but so much has happened!
This year I got to take over the role of Chie Satonaka for the Persona 4 franchise and I fell madly in love with her!! I got to discover her recording P4: arena and really get into her for P4 The Animation and Ultimately claim her with P4: Golden. I know for a lot of P4 fans the voice is a big difference from Tracey’s original read. Well it is. I am different than Tracey. My take on Chie is a whole lot like me playing myself as a teen. I was that energetic, and excitable and HUNGRY! LOL!
Next let’s talk Wild Grinders, My first official cartoon series since Ed, Edd and Eddy! Airs on Nicktoons and is aimed for the younger generation of kids with a whole lot of references to classic animation for the parents watching too. My favorite job to date because of the immense range I get to play on the show and how big my characters are on it! I rarely book ‘Leading’ roles. I am no Laura Bailey.
I am a character actor and tend to book supporting, wacky roles. Well this show makes me feel like I’m a lead when I’m not. I ADORE playing Rob’s arch nemesis Stubford and his Older sister Denise!! I am even falling more and more in love with how well my Patti (Rob’s mom) plays off of Rob’s Dad Gene (voiced by Rob). They are becoming my favorite cartoon parents of all time!
No one seems to know about this show yet, and many older teens hate on it, but i find older teens hate on almost everything cause being negative is easy. If you have watched this show and enjoyed it, know it fills my heart with great joy. Because with the amazing cast including the genius of Yuri Lowenthal and Kel Mitchell nothing but love went into the making of it! Love that is waiting for an audience to find it and receive it!
Now all year from my end, Monster High has been on a hiatus. So other than Comic Con I haven’t really thought about it until this week when after all the diligent hard work I did on the show last year finally comes to fruition with a WHOLE WEEK OF MONSTER HIGH ON NICKELODEON!!! It feels so good to have 2 shows on an amazing cartoon channel.
I wish it was a television series! The execs have asked to turn it into one, but the higher ups have said no. However, I believe with fan support anything can change. And one fan went so far as to create a petition to show how many people support the idea! If you want to help her prove there are numbers of fans who would tune in be sure to sign it: SIGN PETITION HERE
I can’t believe I have gotten to play 6 amazing characters on Monster High. I get asked a lot who is my favorite… but really, how can I choose?!!! Abbey is the funniest to me, Spectra the Ghouliest, CA Cupid is the Loveball, Scarah speaks to my Irish roots, and Rochelle represents my French side! Oui je parles Francais! Claire is simply brilliant and I love her! AND I LOVE THAT SHE GOT TO KISS JACKSON!!! Played by one of my BFF Cindy Robinson !!! Sorry Jackson+Frankie fans.
So all in all I think it’ll take a whole lot more than 6 Monster High characters to capture all the different aspects of my personality! LOL!
Surprises for 2012 have been how successful Skullgirls has been! YAY!!!! A bunch of fans and I think that Skullgirls should have it’s own tv series and air on Toonami!!! But someone will have to make a petition for that to see if there is any real interest out there.
How amazing is it that League of Legends has dominated online gaming! YYYAYYYY!!!! I also got to record a few epic titles in gaming this year but they haven’t been announced yet. I have also been working on a new anime series that hasn’t been picked up anywhere yet. AND I was working on a new animated series (where I booked a lead) but it got put on an indefinite hold….
OH but I do get to go to a screening of an animated feature I’m in next week! I really play a sidekick in it making noises like R2D2 but oddly it was a real terrific character!! Hopefully it airs in theaters in 2013!! We’ll see.
A lot of projects I thought I’d be busy with just didn’t happen. But that’s life…. the tide goes in the tide goes out. Last year I was so busy I could barely breathe! This year I’ve had time to break a foot, heal from it, help my dog get back to health and spend way too much time online getting to know all of you! Which has been a real blessing! So thank you.
I don’t know when the tide will change again and I’ll be too busy to breathe. But I do know I’m terribly excited to start my official round of Conventions that I have booked over the next year! If you want me to visit a Con near you, email them and let them know. My Con Booking agent info is on the contact page of this site. I’m ready for a year of travel for 2013!! So let’s get that going!
So mostly I’m at home with my man and my dog, sending out auditions and hoping for 2nd season on Wild Grinders, more Monster High projects and for some new and exciting shows that are on the horizon but I don’t know about yet.
The best part of 2012 has been to watch the people I love the most in this world blossom! My man booked an animated feature and my best girls are BLOWING UP with bookings and jobs! I can’t thank them enough for keeping me entertained with their good news and out of my own head!! LOL! I’m grateful to have front row seats and be the cheerleader for them as they have been for me! WELL DONE EVERYONE!!! KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK!
For all of you reading this… thank YOU! I appreciate that you take the time to check in on what’s going on, even when not much is. I appreciate that you are on your own journey to achieve your own goals. And maybe like me, some of you aren’t getting much movement on the outer. But know, like me, it means that you are growing the most on the inner! And that’s equally as important if not more so!
It’s times like this that I know I’m building strength, health, endurance, perseverance, patience, kindness, tolerance and love. Life doesn’t get any better than that!
<3 Baraka Bashad – May the Blessings Be
There are 3 important laws in life I try to live by. The First 2 are Maybury’s Laws.
1. Do all you have agreed to do
2. Do not encroach on other persons or their property
and the last one is the Golden Law
3. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.
They may seem simple but life can make them complicated pretty quickly when anger or righteous indignation kick in.
For example when I was young and working at my job at Dairy Queen (my first job ever at 14) I broke all the laws for sure! By taking the job I had agreed to do a certain amount of duties for a certain amount of pay. My job was to collect money and provide the customers with tasty ice cream or brazier goodness. Sounds simple enough.
But being my first job and being excited it was a popular food joint I found myself wrapped up in my ego and would give food away to friends for free and would over indulge in a ridiculous amount of the food myself.
You might think I didn’t do anything wrong. But it was wrong. I didn’t pay for any of that food. The owner did. The owner was kind enough to let the staff eat their for free while they worked, but I abused that privilege and ate more than a fair amount of food. I wasn’t the only one so I justified my behavior by thinking ‘everyone was doing it’. But deep inside I knew I was really stealing. Because as law 3 states, if it was my DQ I wouldn’t want my employees doing that to me.
Someone had to pay for what I ate and gifted and I didn’t care cause I thought it wouldn’t be me. But it was actions like this that led to the karmic repercussion of money troubles in my life later on. Karma is the life law of Cause and Effect, you don’t have to believe in it but like the law of gravity it works whether you believe in it or not.
There is nothing to stop us from doing what we want to do even if it is dishonest. BUT we will have to pay for it later. And I can say by experience that it felt like I payed for it 100 times over.
Ah it’s just a coincidence! you might say. You may be right. However, when I was going through these horrific money issues I was also practicing singing the spiritual word HU . Its an ancient name of the Creator of LOVE that is sung as a love song. I sung it to open my heart to give and receive more divine love in my life but it also has some amazing side effects.
I find that when I sing HU answers come to me from my inner self that explains problems or challenges in my daily life now.
At the time of my $$ problems I sang the HU and a list of incidents where I took liberties with the property of other people came to me. When these memories came to me, it explained to a T why I was having these problems. It didn’t make the problem go away but it did make it easier to swallow. With each financial blow I would say “oh, there’s the first month at DQ” and so on… like paying back an old debt that had gotten much to large.
I believe I could have avoided this karma if I had only 1. asked permission of the owner for the extras I took or 2. not taken what didn’t belong to me because I didn’t pay for it or 3. pay for it
All of this comes up for me because of all the piracy and breaking of confidences that goes on by fans about the shows and games that they love.
One of my best friends is living through a nightmare because a fan decided to post publicly a private chat conversation between the two of them that happened when my friend had received some bad news and was feeling very vulnerable. .. he also spoke vaguely about his job and the stress going on there, without mentioning any names of the project he was on.
The fan who should have been honored that such a big star would confide in him, abused that moment and without My friends permission posted the entire conversation as an Official Interview…. Which also broke the NDA he had signed with a gaming company… because even though he didn’t mention the name of the project, he is famous enough that fans automatically assume what it is and what the fan posted quickly turned into epic gossip about the project which sent the BIG GAME COMPANY into a tailspin.
Also the COMPANY had no proof that the actor wasn’t doing an official interview.
ALL OF THE BLAME LANDED ON THE ACTOR. He is still dealing with the nightmare… he is on the verge of being blacklisted… he is being forced to finish out his contract WITHOUT PAY for the next 5 months ALL BECAUSE HIS CONFIDENCE WAS ABUSED BY A FAN.
The fan has no idea how far things have gone. or that my friend’s health took a horrific tailspin because of all the stress of so many companies and agencies using him as a scapegoat.
I am mortified that this happened but I take it as a warning that not all people follow these laws that I try to live by. It will affect how I interact with fans, of course.
This is the reason Mattel has forbidden its actors to talk about the projects we are on. I can’t blame them! Somehow people feel because Mattel is a huge corporation that makes it ok to steal their content and post it elsewhere without Mattel’s permission. Or leak information about projects hundreds of people have been working for months or sometimes years.
I have had the personal experience of booking a lead in an amazing new Anime series and after releasing the first 3 episodes the piracy was so ridiculous that the company shut down the whole production due to loss of revenue. Translation: I LOST MY JOB BECAUSE FANS ABUSED COPYRIGHT LAWS
Fans who didn’t post the content but watch it are still breaking these laws, the content does not belong to you, and the person who owns it has not given you permission to watch it unless you purchase it yourself or view it in the designated and approved areas like a network on TV or an ‘official’ website.
This is why there is such a huge backlash of copyright laws trying to over take the internet. All because too many people didn’t have the decency to do the right thing and pay for content that doesn’t belong to them.
If you are an artist I know you understand because folks abuse our creations all the time without our permission. Even I post Fan Art I find on Tumblr on my facebook that I don’t know who the artist is… although I hope through fans and such that all artists eventually get the credit they deserve!!! I’m hoping to promote the artists ultimately but I’m sure that I’m breaking the second law when I post art without the credit on the art. I will have to pay for it, I’m sure. Maybe that’s why I buy so much FanArt to make up for it.
I certainly don’t want a company I worked for to use any recording I have done without my permission or proper compensation. I realize that most youth under 30 aren’t making $$ off of what they created so they lack the respect of the creation of others.
The bottom line is ALWAYS ASK PERMISSION… you would be surprised at what can happen. People do say yes, you know! and if they say no respect that and do as they ask, they have their reasons! Not only does it feel good but you prevent paying any debt to the universe later in life.
OR pay for the stuff you love! It’s easy, it feels good and it keeps the cycle of creating quality content coming to you.
So if you want to try and live by these laws too remember:
1. do all you have agreed to do 2. do not encroach on other people or their property
3. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you